Fake.

For starters... 1. I am fake and 2. It's hard to talk about this... but the obligation to do so is deep.

Truth is, I'm going through a divorce and I'm responsible. I've attempted to rectify a lot of things but have met a lot of opposition. The biggest obstacle throughout has definitely been my own sinful nature... and the second biggest obstacle has been others' tendency towards sin. All of this has made me realize that sin will choke you until you have nothing left if you don't get violent against it. Best way to combat your sin is being genuine... which is something I'm learning to do.

I've been kicked, punched, pushed, ridiculed, belittled and rejected in every way possible since March 3, 2011 at 3:03pm. I was at a wedding when this divorce process started. In one sense, I was relieved... because I knew I was about to grow from a sin that had been viciously eating my soul for 5 months... but I was also scared due to not knowing how the future would unfold...

It's been hard but its been almost 3 months since this divorce process started. I've had to stare into the mirror God has put in front of me and evaluate the man I see. When I first looked I saw a scared lying, mislead, prideful, hurt, sad, depressed and angry little boy... What do I see now? The same thing. The difference is I've learned to give every one of those things to our Great and capable Lord-- who takes my shortcomings and transforms them to glorifying gems. He is awesome :).

I'm not done with whatever I'm going through. Truth is, I'm still in it.. but at least I have the advantage of perspective and a good group of friends. Anyways, let's just close with what I've learned... I've learned that bitterness kills, guilt suffocates, faith endures, doubt clouds, love restores, truth refines, grace soothes, Jesus IS, people aren't, I am sinner and God is good...

I Love all of you. Continue to pray faithfully :)