Discipleship.

Play this song as you read these HUMAN spoken words: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKLER57oJpM ...As it plays, feel the unworthiness of THIS heart... Then feel the unworthiness of OUR hearts together... Then feel the grace that was provided. Then thank the Lord. Because..

He is good.

My mentor is a blessing. The disciple of His I am discipling is also a blessing. They'll meet one day. God will be glorified. God, continue to work in my heart through my mentor so that I may not lead the little one astray... I will fail. I HAVE failed. But...

He is good.

Before all of this "major life change" my BIGGEST passion was discipleship. I found worth in Him to lead his flock. I found worth in protecting the great deposit. I have been ruined by my sins though and I embrace that. The great Lord forgives me and has thankfully provided grace. The only problem resides inside of my heart, which feels completely undeserving. Nonetheless...

He is good.

I have NOTHING to gain but Christ. He has already redeemed me from my depraved state. Though people abandon, he hasn't abandoned. By the very nature of people BEING people they are sinners and will fail. You, me, them, Him... Why it surprises me is an absolute mystery really. Points at misguided faith, I think.. but let them keep leaving. They left David, ha. They left Christ-- Even though He was blameless. Truth is? Regardless of PEOPLE... HE will remain present.. and I love him. Why?...

He is good.

The holidays have been hard for me. Same goes for my mentor, who's had to work tirelessly to love on God's creations with his giftings of discernment and empathy. The holiday's have also been tough on the kat I'm discipling, for they have forced refinement. And have humbled him to a state of being... Broken. What does this say to me?...

He is good.

Inside I feel tormented by my sinful tendencies. He forgives me but I desperately wish for consistency. I wish I glorified him more... It's hard to just accept all the awful things present. I only do because he loves me through them and I WILL praise Him.

He is good.

This blog has run long. My word's are few and I pray He hold HIS power in them. Over all things, this heart yearns for Davidic authenticity, Nate-like devotion, Nick-like consistency, Matt-like love and Brent-like growth... NOTHING ELSE matters. And with a perfect 7th time I say...

HE IS GOOD.