Depression.

It's gotten face to face with this word. Enough people read this blog and they would think I was doing it for show... Honestly? This is just my outlet. Aside from prayer... This is my only escape. What else do I have?

I hate me... and I think I'm capable of all things. I dislike me... but would rather be me than a LOT of people. It's like a self-confidence mixed with a severe hatred for self.. Somewhere in there it makes sense. I don't have much to say for this post... I just know I'm tired of being wrong and making erroneous choices. I regret a LOT of things and wish I had thought them through better. In general, I wish I was just... better. OR at least someone else... I hate everything envolved with my situation.. EVERTHING. I need guidance. I need help..... I need... EVERYTHING. Wish someone could hear me.

God. Help me... Please, Send help.