Anger.

I'm FUMING.. There are several examples of Christ getting angry, right? At Peter, in the temple... Word is, he remained sinless though. I probably won't be as graceful but I'm gonna try to share my anger.. So let's do this (I hope a few select/creepy people read this in the process).

I was at work the other day and 2 extremely pretty girls from a new liquor store in town came and asked to set up a booth advertising their products. It was obvious why these 2 specific girls were sent too. They were bait. And both of them were around 21-ish years old-- meaning, barely legal to work at a liquor store to begin with. Within minutes, they were bombarded by drooling dudes of ALL ages-- and of both marital statuses. One of the girls, as claimed by my onlooking 30-year-old-ish friend, gave me the "go" as she came up to my work area and asked what to him seemed like an "excuse question"--Meaning, a made up a question to come swing by my area.

This caused my friend to encourage me into pursuing her. I declined and replied with things like "That ain't me" and "I've got way to much already on my plate from that realm of life"...  (That was my way of saying I'm going through a divorce that I'm largely responsible for in public).. What did he do? He teased me. Said I was a "feely-kinda-guy" and that I was "the sensitive type". He even flirted with calling me a "chicken"-- Oooookay.. Rejection from a girl is hardly a big deal. And to be honest, it didn't happen often. When it did, life went on. Those 2 girls sat at their little booth for a total of three to four hours and one of them, according to my good ol' friend, eye-balled my way the entire time--- Meaning, I got teased for three to four hours by a 30-year-old male.

I tell this story for one reason: A lot of people think I am some type of womanizer. And others think some far worse things.. My question is, how the heck would you know if you're not around me or care to talk to me? Please keep your own insecurities in check. Mr. Erick has had several advances from females of ages 30 to 20 in the past few months (most of them VERBAL) and most of them in the context of partying and drinking. Where will you find me though? At home. Blogging. Reading Wikipedia. Reading theology. Sorting bills. Moving furniture. Working. Womanizer? Really? I struggle more with wanting to down a bottle in solitude. Or even depending on relational intimacy from someone I already know. Want to know about me? Ask me. I'm a sinner and will point you to my shortcomings if they please you. However, don't be mislead by what you wish I was or wasn't or by what you wish YOU were or even aren't. I'm struggling to obey Christ too.

I shouldn't care what people think. I realize this. No excuse for it. Maybe sharing this is the start of me letting it go and if it isn't then shame on me. I pray Christ continues to reveal ACTUAL areas that I should work on. Dear audience, I'm going to abruptly peace out with this: God is good.